December 31, 1971 - R.

What is R. to me? I hardly know. He is young dark & interesting-looking - he seems affectionate & constant. I do not know what I am to him. I can not know if what he says stems from his need to say or my need to hear. I guess I am conscious of our age difference & I feel uneasy & unsure & pregnant with some doubts. But I do need & I do want & he is good to me & so we will have tonight & many more such as is my hope.