June 13, 1972 - Exorcised Ron

I thot last weekend I had exorcised Ron but evidently not. When I remember, not let him and not things we did or had together, but the feelings I felt while with him, I am still reduced, brought to tears. And, oddly enough, they are pleasant tears - I treasure them & those feelings. Is it feeling sorry for myself? No, it is not - it is re-enjoying in an elimental & therefore necessarily painful way, something beautiful.